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" Baby? " A
" Hmm? " I
" I love you. " A
" Forever and ever babe? " I
" Forever and ever , I promise " A
She said to me as the scene flashes through my eyes , as if it just happened yesterday. I lost Allyson months ago , she decided to end Forever and everwith " We weren't meant to be. ". Last time I checked , she'd moved on , within a week she'd found herself a new guy , a better guy I assume?
Allyson used to talk about our future , what kind of houses are we going to live in , what kind of car we are going to drive. She loves Mazda , and that was what I wanted to give her when I've worked enough to pay for it. I miss her , after 6 months , I still miss her.
Allyson meant more than an every guy's girl to me , she was an angel , a girl I would spend time with , she's a girl I would like to call the life time partner. But I guess , what's done is done , what's gone will never return , how I wish I still held the chance of telling her how much I love her , how much I would sacrafice for her , how I'd like her in my arms.
My name is Isaac , I have nothing else to live for , other than thinking , fantasizing what I had with her. My name is Isaac , people call me perfect guy for Allyson. My name is Isaac , today was suppose to be our 2 years anniversary. My name is Isaac , the Isaac who doesn't want to live anymore.
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" Look at the snow ! It's so pretty! " A
" I'm happy I got to see it with you , especially the first time I get to see snow and you are right here with me babe. " I
" Well , you should be happy I'm here with you. " A
" I'm not happy , I'm blessed I got you. " I
" Come here baby. " A
Day 1.
I hope the clock would ring after I feel her hug one more time , eventually nothing is fair in life. I cleaned myself up and went to work as usual. Everything I've seen on my way to work , the bus stop we used to sit and chat with , the fancy restaurant I've brought her to on our 1 year anniversary , the shop where I bought her favourite toy. Even the passanger seat she used to sit , the seat where I used to hold her hand when I was driving , the moments I used to drive her around with my fancy shades , the smiles she had on her when she's right here by my side.
There was nothing I could do to let her go , to let the memories go. I couldn't stop crying when I look at the pictures , the pictures that are so powerful they'll bring tears to a man. I still hear her whispering to me in my dreams , calling my name. The more she's in my mind , the harder it gets to let her go. It hurts so much to see her in other guy's arms.
" Will you leave me at the times I needed you the most? " A
" What kind of guy would I be if I'd ever do that babe ? " I
" I don't know , I'm afraid . " A
" Afraid of what ? " I
" Of losing you . " A
My colleague woke me up after being too exhausted of working , picking up phones. I do not understand why do I still have flashbacks of us when I'm asleep, is this some spell someone put on me to torture me? I pray every night it would stop , I pray I would stop thinking about us.
" Hey Isaac , wanna hang out with us tonight ? We're heading to Overtime. " Joseph said , I knew he wants to cheer me up.
" Yeah , I guess I'll try? "
" Alright , hope to see you there tough. " He left the office , when I look at the time , it was 5pm already.
I hate it when the sun goes down and I have to spend my times in my room all by myself , that is when all the sadness reveals themselves and sabotaj my life . I lost myself under my table lamp shining through my eye lids every time I close my eyes and cry. It hurts to see her so happy , it hurts more to see myself like this, as if I've nothing to live for anymore . It's been 6 months , and this 6 months have been the hardest time for me , in my life.
*whispers* " Baby? " A
" Yes babe? " I
" Are you tired hm? " A
" A little , why? " I
" Go to sleep! " A
" I don't want to. " I
" Why not ? " A
" Because I want to break the moments I had with you on our previous phone call. " I
*whispers* " I love you , so much " A
" I love you too baby. " I hear my voice whispering to myself when I was asleep , hence tears began to gather , I wasn't strong enough to hold them back , I wasn't strong enough to let her go.
To be continued...
" I love you. " A
" Forever and ever babe? " I
" Forever and ever , I promise " A
She said to me as the scene flashes through my eyes , as if it just happened yesterday. I lost Allyson months ago , she decided to end Forever and everwith " We weren't meant to be. ". Last time I checked , she'd moved on , within a week she'd found herself a new guy , a better guy I assume?
Allyson used to talk about our future , what kind of houses are we going to live in , what kind of car we are going to drive. She loves Mazda , and that was what I wanted to give her when I've worked enough to pay for it. I miss her , after 6 months , I still miss her.
Allyson meant more than an every guy's girl to me , she was an angel , a girl I would spend time with , she's a girl I would like to call the life time partner. But I guess , what's done is done , what's gone will never return , how I wish I still held the chance of telling her how much I love her , how much I would sacrafice for her , how I'd like her in my arms.
My name is Isaac , I have nothing else to live for , other than thinking , fantasizing what I had with her. My name is Isaac , people call me perfect guy for Allyson. My name is Isaac , today was suppose to be our 2 years anniversary. My name is Isaac , the Isaac who doesn't want to live anymore.
.
" Look at the snow ! It's so pretty! " A
" I'm happy I got to see it with you , especially the first time I get to see snow and you are right here with me babe. " I
" Well , you should be happy I'm here with you. " A
" I'm not happy , I'm blessed I got you. " I
" Come here baby. " A
Day 1.
I hope the clock would ring after I feel her hug one more time , eventually nothing is fair in life. I cleaned myself up and went to work as usual. Everything I've seen on my way to work , the bus stop we used to sit and chat with , the fancy restaurant I've brought her to on our 1 year anniversary , the shop where I bought her favourite toy. Even the passanger seat she used to sit , the seat where I used to hold her hand when I was driving , the moments I used to drive her around with my fancy shades , the smiles she had on her when she's right here by my side.
There was nothing I could do to let her go , to let the memories go. I couldn't stop crying when I look at the pictures , the pictures that are so powerful they'll bring tears to a man. I still hear her whispering to me in my dreams , calling my name. The more she's in my mind , the harder it gets to let her go. It hurts so much to see her in other guy's arms.
" Will you leave me at the times I needed you the most? " A
" What kind of guy would I be if I'd ever do that babe ? " I
" I don't know , I'm afraid . " A
" Afraid of what ? " I
" Of losing you . " A
My colleague woke me up after being too exhausted of working , picking up phones. I do not understand why do I still have flashbacks of us when I'm asleep, is this some spell someone put on me to torture me? I pray every night it would stop , I pray I would stop thinking about us.
" Hey Isaac , wanna hang out with us tonight ? We're heading to Overtime. " Joseph said , I knew he wants to cheer me up.
" Yeah , I guess I'll try? "
" Alright , hope to see you there tough. " He left the office , when I look at the time , it was 5pm already.
I hate it when the sun goes down and I have to spend my times in my room all by myself , that is when all the sadness reveals themselves and sabotaj my life . I lost myself under my table lamp shining through my eye lids every time I close my eyes and cry. It hurts to see her so happy , it hurts more to see myself like this, as if I've nothing to live for anymore . It's been 6 months , and this 6 months have been the hardest time for me , in my life.
*whispers* " Baby? " A
" Yes babe? " I
" Are you tired hm? " A
" A little , why? " I
" Go to sleep! " A
" I don't want to. " I
" Why not ? " A
" Because I want to break the moments I had with you on our previous phone call. " I
*whispers* " I love you , so much " A
" I love you too baby. " I hear my voice whispering to myself when I was asleep , hence tears began to gather , I wasn't strong enough to hold them back , I wasn't strong enough to let her go.
To be continued...
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