The Life Time Partner . (4)

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Day 35

" Will you be there when I need you most baby ? " A

" Forever and ever, babe " I

I lie on the bed , thinking of the past, thinking of what could have been. I remember I once kneeled down in front of you , " Marry me , baby. " *scoffs* that face , your adorable, blushing face , I would give anything just to see that look on your face one more time

Every time when I thought I could move on , there is always something about you that holds on to me , a faint remnant of nostalgia buried in the smoldering ashes of my broken heart . If there were some way I could go back to the past , to the way we used to be , even just for a day , I would do anything , anything at all.

I thought to myself , as the medicine kicked in , and numbness crept up my body , as I slowly , slowly , fade into darkness. If I don't wake up , I don’t need to let you go , no more sadness , no more tears.


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Day 37

" Close your eyes , I know you are tired. " I

" The bus keeps moving , I can't sleep properly. " A

" Here , use my jacket as a pillow , you can lie on my lap " I

" Heeh , my private pillow ! " A

You lie on my lap as I caress your hair , and I watch you as you slowly close your eyes and drift into slumber . I want you , I want you so badly. But , I've never thought that the moment I open my eyes , I would see you sitting right beside me , I was so happy , excited. Until I saw him. . .

" Why? " I asked as I feel the anger coursing through my veins like molten lead ..

" I know , you wanted to see me Isaac. " She said , when the guy moves forward and grabbed her hands.

" Then why'd you bring him?! " My voice broke , I knew then what I would say would have dire consequences on what happened after , " You brought him here so you could both see me die?! What, is this some kind of movie ? Leave , NOW!! "

" Isaac , " She called me immediately , from the look in her eyes , I don't see the Allyson I once knew , I don't see.. the Isaac in me.

" Now.. " I lowered my voice , trying really hard to calm myself, to control my feelings . I couldn’t look her in the eyes , I didn't want to see him standing so close to her . Jealousy lanced through my heart. "Just . . .go. . . Please. . "

She left immediately , without saying good bye. I sat on my bed , tears kept falling , memories came rushing back. " Why must you do this to me , Allyson. WHY !! " I shouted , I lost control of myself. I know , I don't have the rights to stop her but , why..

" Isaac! " Mika dashed into the ward with Ray and Joseph. Mika hugged me tightly immediately , telling me everything is going to be alright.

" Why.. " I repeated , as I sink into a mire of depression and grief overwhelms me. " What else do you want from me!! Are you happy now , ARE YOU?! " I shouted again.

I hurt, hurt so bad that day , the only word I could thought of was , why? Why did she do this to me , why me.

To be continued...